having to be âmatureâ at a young age sucks bc you arenât really âmature-matureâ youâre a child playing at a maturity bc you donât have the foundation to be the bigger person when conflict arrives so what you do is ignore it bc ignoring a problem and being happy about a resolution look the same to your inexperienced eyes. Then you get adults praising you for a development above your peers but you arenât really developing. Youâre stagnant. Your peers will grow up and experience things and make mistakes and grow from them but you will keep yourself in this box, ignoring things ignoring ignoring ignoring until one day you have to face the fact⌠it wasnât maturity you had. It was fear. And now youâre an adult too and you make all of your choices based on an emotional risk/costs analysis bc you donât know any emotion other than fear & you have to start healing from your own childhood by making peace that you werenât really a mature child. You were just a child who was given too much to carry & didnât know how to say ânoâ.
